When you become aware of your urges… a feeling that urges you to do something, mostly to relieve a tension, a pain, a fear, you’ll probably find this fear of being left out, being left behind.
Urges make you do self-destructive, self-damaging things. Things that when you watch other people do them, you shake your head.
Fear of being left out, fear of being left behind has an age associated with it. It’s young. And your behavior to “fix it” will be young too.
As you may know, I am working with a group of people to take them through the “Gate of Heaven” through the Detached capacity.
As usual, unexpected snags abound. Who ever said it was going to be easy?!
The issue I am encountering is the ego doing its darned best to prevent the capacity from functioning.
When I observe the gritted teeth tenacity of the ego, I have a suspicion that the ego is a hireling of society, of the horizontal plane, and the passage will be harder than I thought.
Everything that is between you and you is becoming active and pulling the participants down.
This article is about what you can do to help me and help yourself to become all you can become, to become a human being.
I used to have it in spades. I used to have no tolerance to a closed door, being inside when children played outside, I wanted to be with them, “me too”.
It looked that people were having fun, and I wanted in. But I didn’t have that much fun, and I got into a lot of troubles, with parents, with school, with my health.
The reason you are so afraid to be left out, because you are afraid to be alone. To meet yourself. To face yourself. To face your emptiness.
So you postpone it by joining in the fun.
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