I just had a breakthrough…
I have been teaching you how to raise your consciousness, your level of consciousness, by allowing something or someone guide you to look at things beyond where you always look, and differently than you have always looked.
I consider myself always a student as well… so I have been listening to myself, and following my own teaching.
But the results, in the area of growing visibility, increasing my following, increasing my
Consciousness, Source, is using me and my life, and my work to map out the human condition.
It’s been consciously so for about five years now.
When something, a sneaky undertow could not be seen on other people, I had to go through the experience to see it.
Without me being cheerfully game, I could say that it is the worst part of my life.
But, remember, the purpose I have invented for my life is to go to the edge, live there a bit, and come back sharing what I s
One step in the 67 step program is to look what area of life isn’t integrated into your life… At first I could not think of anything, but then I had an insight: I started to look at what doesn’t get done… and I saw that anything that is not integrated into my life… doesn’t get done… or if it is, it’s a chore, drudgery.
cleaning, throwing stuff away, etc.
Why? Because your life has a purpose, probably hidden from your view. And that is your life, the life you want. The life you consider life, living… And everything else is death…
So before you integra
Lack of sleep is one of the biggest issues of our time. Not because you are doing anything useful, or because you don’t have time to sleep.
This article is about taming your tiredness so you can sleep.
This is one thing no one is talking about… you are too tired to go to bed, you are too tired to go to sleep.
Most of my life I lived a life like this: I would work, intensely, 12-18 hours a day. Then I would be too tired to go to sleep.
I may even get to my bedroom, and sit on the edge of the bed, pr
When you become aware of your urges… a feeling that urges you to do something, mostly to relieve a tension, a pain, a fear, you’ll probably find this fear of being left out, being left behind.
Urges make you do self-destructive, self-damaging things. Things that when you watch other people do them, you shake your head.
Fear of being left out, fear of being left behind has an age associated with it. It’s young. And your behavior to “fix it” will be young too.
Very “interesting” experience. I watched the first year of Dexter, and although I wanted to watch all episodes, the first year was not addictive.
But I had a premonition about the rest of the series.
Made up by skilled television writers, I knew it was going to be something dangerous to my well-being.
Unneeded complications, many different side-story lines, all dramatic and irrelevant, all stories I would not watch Netflix for. But all of these side-stories had a claw as sharp as the tiny hooks of burr… of v
Let me ask you something: do you have to deserve a body? Did you have to deserve to be able to read?
No. Deserving is much more basic, and much more profound than that kind of deserving, which would equate the word with earning.
Earning is a mercantile world’s word: it measures your work, or your merchandise against the asking price… earning.
But deserving is different, regardless how crazy that word drove me when I was a kid. My kid brother whining that he deserved whatever he was whining about.
I didn’t think I deserved anything, so he asserting that he de
Today was my errands day. It is also the only day during the week when I talk to anyone.
And as you know, talking when I have echo, someone who hears me is the most meaningful activity for me.
I did have private clients for massage, and I did it for 16 years… Giving a massage is not meaningful for me. So I picked and chose, and filtered, and screened the people that wanted a massage: If I didn’t feel that there will be a meaningful conversation, that I would be heard, I didn’t take them as a client.
Hey, it’s my life, and my fulfillment is what it is supposed to be organized around.
I am unabashed
As I am dealing with the issue of courage, I realized something that I had never quite seen before:
All the quotes, all the memes, all the nice sayings on the internet have one function only: to make you stay the same.
And by same I mean driven by ego, fear, cowardice, slothfulness, superiority, pretense… etc.
Now, that is a bold statement, after all those quotes and memes, and nice sayings, and even coaching claim and sound and look inspiring. And therein lies the mischief:
They suggest that you can just simple want it more, choose it, believe it and then you can have it… whatever the
I just noticed that guessing is not a good method in process… neither is faking it, winging it, etc. It’s not a process if someone else cannot follow in your footstep! Ugh.
I can see that I need to change more things than one… especially guessing… I find it irresistibly funny… lol… even though I am not sure what is making me laugh out loud. But it tickles my funny bone that all my habits fly in the face of process.
Ego is trying to assert itself, yelling that it’s boring…
Some 30 years ago I participated in a seminar series on and for creativity. I have one thing I still remember: