I am starting to see why my students loved me, rallied for me back in 2012-2013-2014…
It’d been puzzling me… what did I do differently then?
Today I saw it.
I had a private call with a brand new client from Australia, and it was a video call on zoom (don’t ask… first time zoom user myself!) so I could see her, and the changes the conversation was creating in her.
Sense signals fight for dominance all the time, and humans allow visual signals to dominate most of the time… so I wasn’t consciously feeling her… I actually saw her.
And that was a different guidance in many ways… I could SEE what was missing for her, and guide her through that.
As I am teaching the invisible dynamics, I go every day and dig up older recordings…
This one is brilliant. It deals with the complaint activated dynamic, called racket. But the racket in this recording is “special”… it points to why your life is so empty, and why, it seems, nothing that you do fills it up with life…
It is, to me, devastating to hear the “bend” of the world to be “against”… and the complete blank when it comes to “for”.
This is nothing new. This is the story of humanity: a richness of distinctions what to hate, what to fight, what to be against… and a poverty of colors, distinctions, actions when that fight succeeds.
No one knows. No one is even looking. No one gets that it is more important than air…
You, for example, went through life being willfully ignored, belittled, criticized, forced, humiliated by your parent.
You are now a parent. You have no idea what a good parent would do or be… you only know what not to do… and you either still do it, or you do this and that, but
I had a very interesting conversation, in email, with one of my long time students.
It belies one of the fundamental needs of a human: being paid attention to.
You could say: every child is paid attention to, you work for them, you clean them, to feed them, you put them to bed, but being paid attention to is different. It is a need to be personally noticed, considered, and in some way validated… or something breaks inside.
It is hard to estimate how many children suffer from the lack
I have been listening to old calls, webinars, courses, with fascination.
The latest call I listened to was a workshop style call for the upcoming course, back in 2013, Called the Pebble In Your Shoe.
I started to see something I could not even fathom six years ago: that we, the current humanity, deny having anything good on ourselves… expect the fake goodness we may pretend.
Essentially we deny our divine origin, our souls, and the soul’s desire, the spirit’s desire to soar.
So I am listening to the “itch” calls, and I am mortified at the level of transformation… It is near zero.
Sometimes I put the cart in front of the horses…
The insight on the two selves that unless they can become a team, no transformation can happen, came since I did those amazing Itch calls… so no wonder…
What am I talking about?
Your machine, your particular machine, was built on an incident, or better said: a decision you made (or accepted about yourself) as a child.
So far so good… but it doesn’t stop there.
There is a series of “therefores”… behaviors, that come from that early decision, and all of them are ugly. Fake. Pretentious. All try to fix what wasn’t true to begin with.
I woke up with a start. OMG… The switch… or the pebble… or whatever I called it!
The invisible dynamics is a system. It is like a machine. A complex machine… It takes in life as it could be, and it spits out your life as it is, having sucked all the juice out of it. Really.
That is the machine.
Knowing the moves of the machine, but especially the switch of the machine, is the secret to having a life that is less wretched less of the time
I don’t think I have ever really distinguished the difference between these two similar sounding activities… so it’s time.
As usual, I had to distinguish the difference for myself… the hard way.
I almost didn’t make it…
My strength deteriorated to the degree that I was having heart pain and exhaustion from just going from one end of the apartment to the other… So I started to mentally prepare myself to meet my maker, so to say.
The weird stuff was, that Source answered all my “diagnostic” questions with no… not my heart, not my lungs, not this and not that… yet it agreed that I was dying… Weird, right?
Deep sleep is part of your sleep cycles during the night, but when we think of the mechanics of sleep, three letters often come to mind: REM. A staple of 1980s rock music (be honest, we all loved “Losing My Religion”) as well as an oft-quoted sleep standard, REM (or rapid eye movement) sleep has gained a reputation as the highly coveted and difficult to achieve period of sleep that recharges your batteries, stores your memories, and houses your dreams. It’s rare to read an article, how-to, or scientific study that doesn’t mention the many benefits of REM sleep.
But contrary to just about anything you read on sleep science, REM sleep isn’t the be-all and end-all of what happens during